| i just like the song... |
[May. 8th, 2006|11:45 pm] |
I'm a mess,
I guess.
It's what I asked for, it's what I needed.
Well, you know me better than that, or at least you did and something happened.
But once again something¹s happened.
The confidence you held in us is the rope we almost hung ourselves with.
At times I wonder if we really took the steps to break right through it.
I know that there were better days, but to see the light and to feel the rays.
Life was always back and forth and we were idling or making useless progress.
Waiting for the rain to stop.
Destination: beautiful.
Seems that I'm still waiting for the sun.
Someday will come back to us,
if you're willing let it go.
Why won't you just let this be your sun?
It seems like yesterday we had the world our way.
But some say we're headed for destruction.
I'll ask you
What in the world should we do?
The light is green our break is through.
Are we not trying or are we trying to hard?
Well, you know I never want to miss,
I hold on tight and reminisce.
But it's bittersweet to me.
When time stands still as it¹s trapped inside the letterbox you gave back to me.
But I'm the one who keeps on reading...reading
But I'm the one who wants to let it go.
I'm the first to speak.
You¹re the last to know.
Another scene that we're creating,
I need to know if we're still making useless progress. |
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[Mar. 5th, 2006|08:18 pm] |
Things can't always go your way..you have to learn to adjust. But not to the point of losing yourself in the process. You still have to stand firm in what you believe in and stick by your values. But it's always easier said than done. Most of the time it's harder when you're actually in the situation. Sometimes, instead of adjusting and compromising, you end up changing yourself completely and just give in. Maybe because of the pressure? I don't know. In the end there's always that question lingering in your mind: was it worth it? But it won't matter because you can't take it back. What's done is done. Learn to live with it.
2 things:
***That day was one of the worst days...I hate that feeling. But at least I got through it. Everything happens for a reason and this probably made me realize that i'm not cut out for it.***
***Was it the right thing to do?*** |
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[Mar. 4th, 2006|08:10 pm] |
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We had practice for the Lit play again today. Not as much progress as yesterday but at least we had time to practice in the venue itself. Even if it was only for an hour... What was supposed to be a whole day of practice turned out to be just about 2 hours or so. Practice was supposed to start at 9 but people started coming at around 1030! Such a Filipino trait! And speaking of... it's so funny how us Filipinos have a hard time reaching for the last piece of food on the table even though deep down inside you know you really want to get it. We were eating chicharon in my house and then there was the tiniest piece left, and no one wanted to get it! Haha. It was a tiring day although it didn't turn out so bad.... at least I was able to watch the game in moro! ;p (ang galeng *wink wink* haha) |
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| Just Great! |
[Feb. 20th, 2006|11:38 pm] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
I hate surprises. |
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[Feb. 16th, 2006|10:36 pm] |
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| |  accomplished | ] |
When it comes to wanting to change anything about myself for the better i'm usually all talk. Especially when it comes to eating and exercising. But when you think about it, at least i do want to improve...the intention is there, even though i never push through with my plans. I don't know why but there was something about this week that made me finally go to the gym. It actually feels good, knowing that i'm doing something for myself and making good use of my "idle time" as some people would put it. It's not just about trying to be fit or going with the fad... It's about having the discipline and determination to actually do something in order to reach your goal. It's quite fulfilling.
"I will love the light for it shows me the way; yet i will love the dark for it shows me the stars..." (Beyond the Shadows) |
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[Feb. 11th, 2006|06:20 pm] |
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| |  chipper | ] |
Waking up at 2am and sleeping for only 2 hours was not so bad after all...It was actually all worth it. I had to wake up at 2am to make it to the Total gas station in Balintawak on time. We were supposed to leave for the hot air balloon festival by 345 but we ended up leaving around 430am. I was looking forward to the car ride more than the festival itself... haha. It was fun telling jokes and jason's favorite....sharing! hahahaha. Even though we didn't get to ride a hot air balloon at least we were able to bond. Walking around under the terrible heat, watching people fly their kites, teasing each other, looking at the stores, eating, being all silly, hours and hours of waiting-it was the company that mattered. I still enjoyed the whole trip...especially the food in Ed's house! (Thanks Ed!!!)
Now the down side of it all..... a 3-5 reflection paper due on the 24th!!!! just great! |
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[Feb. 7th, 2006|08:20 pm] |
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| |  drained | ] |
Isn't it great how everything just falls into place when you least expect it? When you're all stressed out and rattled coz of all the things you have to do with so little time... Then something comes up and suddenly everything you were worried about just disappears... Such a great feeling! But you can't always expect that that will happen. I guess it's just a matter of taking things one at a time, one day at a time. You have to set your priorities straight. Speaking of priorities.... Have to start my Fil paper and review for our lab report! aaaaaaaggggghhhhhh |
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| on a lighter note.... |
[Jan. 30th, 2006|08:45 pm] |
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| |  blank | ] |
I actually tried playing dota! For two hours or something. Haha, I know, i'm such a hypocrite...
(Thanks for the free hour franny! ;D) |
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| here we go again |
[Jan. 30th, 2006|08:38 pm] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
I promised to study for Botany ahead of time (meaning last weekend) but I ended up not even touching my damn notebook! Now I have to cram all those notes, research and info from several books into my head all in one night! Plus i have to do stuff for Fil which i don't think i'll have time for. And it doesn't make it any easier that my life just sucks right now. Nothing seems to be going right... Don't think you (anyone in general) know what i'm talking about coz you don't...it's far more complicated than that. If anyone thinks that my life is just perfect...that's plain bullshit. I just want to cry right now. |
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| hecticness! |
[Jan. 25th, 2006|09:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | busy | ] |
The past two weeks or so have been very hectic, full of requirements to pass and midterms to study for. I thought that this week would be my time to relax after all the fuss but it turns out that I still have to finish writing my English research paper which I started only recently. What sucks is that i've been going home kinda late these past few days...around 7:30 pm on the average. What's worse is that I have a Botany long test, Lab exam, PE long quiz and who-knows-what-else next week! I don't think i'll have time to study for all those this weekend :s Oh well... one thing i've learned, if there's a will, there's a way! Plus there's cramming. Not really a good idea but I guess it'll have to do. hahahah |
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| talk about being a responsible student! |
[Jan. 17th, 2006|06:54 pm] |
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| |  restless | ] |
I keep forgetting that it's my Math midterms tomorrow!!!! What's wrong with me?!?! Will someone please tell me to start studying??
**study Sarah, study!!!!****
hahahaha
Okay. Bye. |
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| just a thought |
[Jan. 17th, 2006|06:33 pm] |
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| | moody | ] |
I had another blood test again yesterday before going to school. Most people would actually dread having to go through it but I was actually looking forward to it. I know, i'm weird. The pain didn't really scare me. I realized that pain also has it's good side. Pain reminds us that we are still living; that not everything in this life is great; that there are problems out there that we all have to go through, whether petty or serious. But without pain, we wouldn't know what happiness is... We wouldn't be able to feel the simple joys of life that make each day worth living.
Pain is inevitable. Learn to live with it. |
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| be careful what you wish for... |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|01:33 am] |
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| | drained | ] |
After wondering why it hasn't happened to me, it sort of finally did.. and i'm not that happy about it. Nothing major though. Just hope it doesn't turn into something big. Haha
Oh by the way, congrats to those who passed the ACET! See you guys next year! |
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| Welcome 2006! |
[Jan. 7th, 2006|11:32 am] |
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| |  okay | ] |
It's been a week since the start of 2006 and it's been 3 days since the end of the christmas break. To be honest, I didn't really have much of a hangover from the break considering I didn't go out as much as I wanted to. Most of the time I spent at home which is why on some days i wished that school would start. I missed school not for the work but for the company, the people you got used to seeing almost everyday for about 6 months.
Anyway! Lately i've been going to the doctor.. I feel like Medical City is now my second home. Hahahah. But it's really nothing serious. Nothing to worry about.
Hmmm, I feel like I have so much to write but I cant seem to put them all into words. A lot has happened since christmas and I guess it would take forever if I write them all here.
Side note: Thanks to everyone who's made my 2005 memorable! I had a blast |
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[Oct. 5th, 2005|07:17 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
What was supposed to be a long long day turned out to be a not so hectic one. I had tons of things lined up for today. There was the lab exam, English homework on fallacies, lit quiz on Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and Orbus Tertius…, and a quiz in Fil about Sa Bagong Paraiso. It was a good thing we had a free cut in Lit so we didn’t take the quizzes and there was also no quiz in Fil. We had a seatwork in English though.
Although my day was not that hectic, it was still tiring. I don’t really know why but for the past few days, I’ve been really tired and sleepy. I’d go straight to bed as soon as I get home and wake up early in the morning (3am!) to study and do my homework. I can’t wait till the end of next week…sembreak!!! But before that, I’m going to have to study hard for the finals. I’m gonna need all the luck I can get!
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So that’s what it is… I’m not sure why but after today, I didn’t want it as much. But who knows…maybe just today though ;p |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2005|11:30 pm] |
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| | okay | ] |
Just got back from seeing "The Perfect Man" in eastwood... Such a feel-good movie! I guess it's a nice way to start another hectic week. Hard as it may seem, i'm just gonna have to take it a day at a time and I know i'll get through it. On the brighter side, I don't have pe anymore this week! So i'm out at 1:30pm everyday.. doesn't really matter coz i'm still going to leave school at around 5 like I always do. It just sucks to be home so early and not have anything to do, much less anyone to be with. and I guess I just enjoy the company in school, that's all. |
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[Oct. 1st, 2005|08:35 pm] |
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Jam's Party was the best!!!! What a perfect way to end such a stressful week. If I didn't have this to look forward to then the past week would've probably been way too slow! I'm glad everything turned out okay despite some things that happened. This was also the first time I went out of town with JaBeGaMiSaMa...actually complete!!! Oh and the food was great too. But the best part was being able to forget any problems and stressful stuff, even for just two days. It was great just being able to catch up on things and bond with people. But now it's back to reality... not again. |
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[Sep. 25th, 2005|10:00 pm] |
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| | sleepy | ] |
I need to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!! But I can't, I have so many things to do.. I think it's gonna be hell week for me this week.
1)english quiz
2)lit quiz
3)english homework
4)lit journal entry thing
5)lit reaction paper for the play
6)es case study
7)fil long test
8)math homework
9)pe practicals
I'm not even sure if that's all of it... I may have missed out on some. But at least I have something to look forward to this weekend. I hope i'll be allowed!!! I can't wait, it's gonna be so much fun!! Finally, i'm gonna get to swim after a really loooooooooooong time.. hahahah |
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[Sep. 23rd, 2005|11:34 pm] |
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| | exhausted | ] |
I just finished burning cd's for my dad.. I made 250 bucks! haha, easy money! But hey, I had to sacrifice catching up on lost sleep during the week..
Tomorrow's gonna be a really loooong day, I can feel it! There's breakfast in Mcdo at around 8.. Tagaytay at 9.. then dinner at 7 in Pacific Plaza for Mitch's birthday. We might even go out somewhere after... I'm looking forward to the dinner because I haven't been out with my friends (all 5 of them complete!) in a long time. It makes me miss being in high school when we'd get to hang out a lot. Those were the days!
And by the way, belated happy birthday mitch!!! Love ya ;p |
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| why must this always happen?!?! |
[Sep. 18th, 2005|07:48 pm] |
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| |  aggravated | ] |
Why is it that sometimes, someone gets mad at you for doing something really petty and not worth getting all hyped up about? Why is it that sometimes people put the blame on you for not making things happen the way they want it to? When things like this happen, don't you think it's just easier to talk about it calmly and LISTEN to what the other person has to say first? I'm so sick and tired of trying to explain my side because i know I'll end up being wrong anyway. Nothing I say will ever matter so what's the point? I'd rather keep quiet and take in all the burden even though I know I'm not entirely at fault. I'm actually used to this already but sometimes, I just can't take it anymore. It happens every so often that I've become indifferent to the matter. And does it help to take away something that makes me happy? It will only make things worse, and trust me, it will not make me act any differently. You're not the only one having a hard time. If only you knew how hard it is for me too. I could easily be somewhere else and with the way things are going, you're just pushing me further away. So how do you expect me to want to stay? But no matter what, I still can't do that and I hope you realize why and at least appreciate what I'm trying to do. |
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